Although I highly doubt this will be read much at all, I figured it necessary to update. It may just be a yearly thing as it seems to have been yearly the past ones.
This year has been rough (though not as rough as for some children who have way less support and love than I do.) for myself and my family, both intimate and distant.
My uncle passed away in January of this year. My birthday followed in February rather unhappily in some ways. Around March or April, I lost one of my animals to a disease or sickness that my family is still not knowing of (we debated the same as her elder sister, Wendy, or a poisoned mouse she hunted.) May passed rather too busy for much else to happen. And finally my devastating June hit. Painful July followed and August begins with hardship foreseen.
My uncle passed away in January of ALS also known as Lou Gehrig's Disease. He fought hard for two years and though we expected the time running out, we hoped for more time so as he'd see the bundle of joy that as on the way (and came a week later unfortunately for him.) My family is devastated and will always remember him.
My house caught fire the beginning of this past July and I lost virtually almost everything I owned. But more importantly, I lost a piece of myself and my heart. Katrina Marie, my precious creature and like my baby, perished in the extensive smoke and heat that filled my house. The event seems most like a daydream now that I think of it myself. Almost like it is too unreal to be believed but it happened. (So I caution now that it would happen to even the least expectant so be prepared for it if you can to save yourself.) Without simple miracles, I fear my entirely family (which includes the pets as well) would have perished. I think myself not so lucky as the rest of them for my heart is forever scarred in its loving nature. For the thing I love and want most is now best preserved in ashes, memories, and simple pictures.

Life is hard but I have this feeling that I will keep trudging forward to make myself a bearable path though the bleak cloud stays over me. I still want to make it the best knowing I will see the one thing I want eventually. Even while I sit here impatiently waiting for her to give me a sign.





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